ok....ready for some tough love?
I dipped for 14 years, I quit ..period..Jan 4, 2004.
the first 30, 60, 90 days are the hardest physicaly--then it becomes a mindgame.
You brain processes niccotine the same as cocain...so..yer a junky/cokehead
At 90 days I got a tattoo, to remind me of my decision to quit, it also reminded me of the 90days of hell I just went through. The tattoo also reminds me that if I go back, I lost a fight I'd been putting up for (it's been 5 years now)
There's triggers that bring on your addiction....beer, chocolate, stress all triggerd mine. Oh, another funy thing, all the stress I dodged for a those years came back to me over the course of 12 months. Anxiety attacks were the worst...I thought I was having a heart attack
Some of that was brought on by the death of a family member which gave me PTSD, but quitting the addiction made it worse.
You have to make the decision to quit--for you, and do it......screw everything else. Make it your priority.