Sushi, take it easy, man. The way they have been treating you, & you working for them, the loss of you leaving them will be theirs. Probably be the best thing to happen to you, meaning you will then be a free agent to go find a decent place to work.
I don't have any idea what you are making there, and it's not any of my business. What I do know is there is a job out there for you.
You sound like me, I know where I am working and what I am doing there. I'm afraid of change. I have worked for the state for over 29 years total now. about 5 1/2 years ago, i transferred from the Dept. of Agriculture. I had been there for 24 years, liked what I did, and knew the job inside and out. But when the politics got too far in it, I had to get out of the POLITICAL BULL $HIT. I still liked my job, but couldn't take the supervisors BS any more.
Scared shitless, I transfered to Department of Corrections. It was one of the best moves I have ever made, career wise. First, I got about an extra 6 % raise. On top of that my retirement doubled from that point on. I will be able to "retire" from the state in 43 weeks with about 60% of what I am making now, just to sit on the poarch. If I had NOT moved, I would have capped out at 45%.
Sushi, my friend, make this an improvement for you, not a pit. YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN WORKING UNDER THAT KIND OF STRESS.
PLEASE, don't do anything stupid.
You have many friends here.