("...ah no, I have accepted my dailylife as it is, moreover, I have accepted where that path goes to too, those trappings of dailylife and the trinkets of the moneygod I mean..." replied the goblin wondering how cheap an outlook that was today, adding "...yet when I write it's something else, where the persona is a mask of the alter-ego behind it, simply the pen taps into that alter-ego there, it's why I told you not to write while having bad dreams, it's a common problem amongst writers, moreover, think over your accusations here, the anonymous by their anonymity are not attention seeking, are trolls as polite as I am, do they stick to topic like I do, is it madness to understand that nothing here can be proved...", but by now the hour had caught up with the goblin once more, no he wanted to write long into the night still but his age was against that whim, while outside the clouded moon just seemed a lone witness to his drowning thoughts, sighing "...with writing, the illness is thinking of it as an illness, where others would think of it more as a gift then, me, I've paid its price from years back now, but I've got a ringside seat in my mind to show for it...")
repost from elsewhere, the "writing about writing about writing" thread
and with that the goblin showed, read through the posts and felt he was onto something, saying "...on forumland the choice is a simple one, that of either becoming an anonymous peter pan, or of being some known wendy, where wendy grows old that is..."
But my dear friend, isn't growing old growing at least?
"...a friend I am, yet I see you've been talking to goblins again, steady now, bad idea, they're not to be trusted you know, but, whereas in dailylife one has no choice about it, on forumland one has that choice, so for me, I'd like to grow something other than simply
old..." replied the goblin, adding "...and since nothing here can be proved at all, what is the point, and where is the need, of one's dailylife mask now, one's mask by fate perhaps, but a mask all the same...", the goblin guessed that any self portrayal was unlikely to be as objectively honest as perhaps how others around him would see him, so that just saved the goblin from drawing the line about himself, by having no line at all, observing "...it's quite simple,
an ageless faceless goblin on forumland, masks an old fart in his dailylife, who in turn masks an ageless faceless goblin within him still, so now, do you judge something by its appearance or by its contents where perhaps both are the two sides of the same coin here..."
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