well todays update is that she has started to forgive me for what i did and we are back to being friends. of all the things i could have done to break her trust why did i have to do the same thing that every other guy she has been with did to her. i thought i was better than that. man i'm depressed about it all. really wishing that she would have just hit me or kicked me in the junk instead i'm left to suffer from my own guilt over hurting her so bad by getting into her email accounts. only thing that saved me is that i was honest when she confronted me about it. but that can only take you so far.
One thing to remember FN , Trust is the #1 most important thing in any relationship . You have my best wishes and hopefully time will heal .