Galvatron
Spock and Galvatron < one and the same
Had a dream last night,not sure what brought it on but it was followed up by me getting a unexpected email this morning...
My dream started with me getting a letter in the post from a man claiming he needed me to go to his office to clear up a matter that was long overdue...being curious i went to the office which was a office i knew from many years ago,the haulage company my father and myself worked for was run out of this office,i was asked to take a seat by a well dressed gentleman to which he passed me a piece of paper to which had a list of items,the first item on the list was a gold pocket watch to which the gentleman handed me small green silk bag,i knew instantly what it was as this was my Grandfathers pocket watch(my mothers father) and although i have not seen this in close to 30 years in my dream as i opened it and pulled it out by it's gold chain it was just as i remembered.
Then i was handed another piece of paper which had written on it "your brothers and sister would only sell it,i hope you find peace" to which my dream shifted and i was standing in a Forrest with the watch in my hand and a gentle breeze brushing through the tree's,it was damn peaceful,and i woke up.
So 6am i got up with my wife and we joked about it,wife went off to work and i sat down like i do with my morning coffee and checked my emails,i got a email from a unknown source just saying "Mum has some health issues and is getting frail maybe it is time for you to give her a visit" and there was a image attached,yup it was a picture of a frail old woman that i had to have a second look at as it was her,i have not spoken to her in 13 years but it looked like 50 years had bit her arse,she used to be this woman that was largely built with dyed hair and dressed like a head mistress but this just showed a grey haired woman sitting in a chair with a dressing gown wrapped around her skeletal frame.
So i went for a top up on coffee sat back down and looked at her once more,and that's when i see through the old frail lady and see the monster she was,this was the violent abusive scum that beat me as a child and should never and i mean never have ever been allowed to have children,this is the piece of crap that failed to insure i got a good education and as a result i left school at the age of 15 and got a job so i could support a secure future for myself,this poor excuse of a mother told me to my face it should have been me that died in a road accident and not my younger brother to which she loved and i was just a inconvenience,the abuse she caused was so bad i still have some yes faded but not forgotten physical scars.
I thank my father for the fact i am the man i am as he never raised his hand and always told me in his own way he loved me and in his final year working with him away from home on the roads he made clear his marriage was a product of the times,he died when i was 24 he was 52,as for her i owe her nothing.
I know forgiveness is a powerful gift and it brings peace but guess what i am at peace,i find peace in knowing i never dragged my kids and and abused them in the way i was.
As for the Gold pocket watch in the dream,i know it as a dark past,Granddad died when i was only a young child in the early 70's,he was relativity young and was a victim of WW2,came back a violent man and continued the war right to the day he died on the sofa at my parents house on a weekend visit,the watch became his during his darkest moments from means i would rather not share....i do not need that negative force in my home.
Now how weird was all that....i wont reply to the email and now i have it off my chest,funny how the mind works,even stranger how the dream and email came all within a few hours.
My dream started with me getting a letter in the post from a man claiming he needed me to go to his office to clear up a matter that was long overdue...being curious i went to the office which was a office i knew from many years ago,the haulage company my father and myself worked for was run out of this office,i was asked to take a seat by a well dressed gentleman to which he passed me a piece of paper to which had a list of items,the first item on the list was a gold pocket watch to which the gentleman handed me small green silk bag,i knew instantly what it was as this was my Grandfathers pocket watch(my mothers father) and although i have not seen this in close to 30 years in my dream as i opened it and pulled it out by it's gold chain it was just as i remembered.
Then i was handed another piece of paper which had written on it "your brothers and sister would only sell it,i hope you find peace" to which my dream shifted and i was standing in a Forrest with the watch in my hand and a gentle breeze brushing through the tree's,it was damn peaceful,and i woke up.
So 6am i got up with my wife and we joked about it,wife went off to work and i sat down like i do with my morning coffee and checked my emails,i got a email from a unknown source just saying "Mum has some health issues and is getting frail maybe it is time for you to give her a visit" and there was a image attached,yup it was a picture of a frail old woman that i had to have a second look at as it was her,i have not spoken to her in 13 years but it looked like 50 years had bit her arse,she used to be this woman that was largely built with dyed hair and dressed like a head mistress but this just showed a grey haired woman sitting in a chair with a dressing gown wrapped around her skeletal frame.
So i went for a top up on coffee sat back down and looked at her once more,and that's when i see through the old frail lady and see the monster she was,this was the violent abusive scum that beat me as a child and should never and i mean never have ever been allowed to have children,this is the piece of crap that failed to insure i got a good education and as a result i left school at the age of 15 and got a job so i could support a secure future for myself,this poor excuse of a mother told me to my face it should have been me that died in a road accident and not my younger brother to which she loved and i was just a inconvenience,the abuse she caused was so bad i still have some yes faded but not forgotten physical scars.
I thank my father for the fact i am the man i am as he never raised his hand and always told me in his own way he loved me and in his final year working with him away from home on the roads he made clear his marriage was a product of the times,he died when i was 24 he was 52,as for her i owe her nothing.
I know forgiveness is a powerful gift and it brings peace but guess what i am at peace,i find peace in knowing i never dragged my kids and and abused them in the way i was.
As for the Gold pocket watch in the dream,i know it as a dark past,Granddad died when i was only a young child in the early 70's,he was relativity young and was a victim of WW2,came back a violent man and continued the war right to the day he died on the sofa at my parents house on a weekend visit,the watch became his during his darkest moments from means i would rather not share....i do not need that negative force in my home.
Now how weird was all that....i wont reply to the email and now i have it off my chest,funny how the mind works,even stranger how the dream and email came all within a few hours.
