Gees Bob, you've not had a good 10 days. As you know, I'm on "the watch" for my 93 year old grandmother. Even though it was more spaced out, it still gets to me to think that 1 year ago I still had all 4 of my grandparents. Now I have only 1, and she has been sent home from the hospital to pass on.
This sort of thing just hangs with me for a while. First off, I do not know proper protocol at funerals, I feel awkward there, my emotions are up and down constantly, and I'm upset. However, I try to tell myself that each of my grandparents made it well into their 90's with relatively good health. I guess I should be so lucky. For whatever reason, that thought still doesn't help.
Again, I'm really sorry to hear about your loss. Every time my phone rings late at night or early in the morning, I jump up to answer it in a panic. I don't like this. I sincerely hope you are finished with your spell of deaths.